Lately, things seems to be so blurry. I’ve been down in dumps then feeling happy again, but right now… I just feel so miserable, AGAIN. I hate it. I don’t want to lose what we have, i don’t want to put an end unto what we have started.

i returned to him the 3 important things he gave because i was too mad that I can’t clearly think well. Most of the time, I feel so selfish but I just don’t want to be treated the way he treated me. I believe I don’t deserve it. But, I must have to understand his side too. I don’t know, I am so confused as of this very moment. I know both of us are bearing the brunt, we’ve hurt each other so bad, big time. I was indignant that I don’t want to hear his explanations or even feel his hands holding mine. Sorry but I’ve reached my breaking point.

Loving someone will always deal with sacrifice and pain yet I am not sure if I could still hold on. All I have to do right now is to pray for courage and strength. I know regrets will happen if I’ll decide immaturely. I will try my very best not to surrender but yea.. I am just so down right now.

I don’t know if there will be someone who’ll be reading this but please bear with me. I know this really make no sense at all.

Despite all these drama, truth still stands that forgiveness will always be the key.

1Peter 4:8 
Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.

Luke 17:3-4 ESV Pay attention to yourselves! If your brother sins, rebuke him, and if he repents, forgive him, (4) and if he sins against you seven times in the day, and turns to you seven times, saying, ‘I repent,’ you must forgive him.”

(I’m writing this because i feel so sad and down but I’ve noticed that God’s word revealed as i continue writing… Thank You for the Message, Lord. Thanks for guiding me and for reminding me about the Truth, You.)